And I have filled this void with things unreal.
Sleeping is nice. You forget about everything for a little while.
I’m scared to death of settling down and committing because I know a part of me will always be waiting for you to come back.
I think most of us have a “one who got away”—someone from the past who captured our imagination. This is the person we Google late at night, wonder “what if” about—and for better or worse, use as a measuring stick for all other relationships. Often this relationship happens when we are young—so sometimes it’s hard to distinguish that intense time in our lives from the actual person and relationship. The lines can be really blurry.
And then you let them go again
Whenever I feel bad, I use that feeling to motivate me to work harder. I only allow myself one day to feel sorry for myself. I ask myself, “What are you gonna do about it?” I use the negativity to fuel the transformation into a better me.
I have a problem
Of letting people
Make me their home
Who don’t even have
The common courtesy
Of wiping their feet
Before they enter
Into the blue.
I failed to appreciate the beauty of ageless blue skies
until I fell into your honeyed eyes.
I swear, I’ve forgotten how to breathe —
forgotten how to be.
Where I am going, I do not know.
However, my sights are set on you.
It’s easy to feel uncared for when people aren’t able to communicate and connect with you in the way you need. And it’s so hard not to internalize that silence as a reflection on your worth. But the truth is that the way other people operate is not about you. Most people are so caught up in their own responsibilities, struggles, and anxiety that the thought of asking someone else how they’re doing doesn’t even cross their mind. They aren’t inherently bad or uncaring — they’re just busy and self-focused. And that’s okay. It’s not evidence of some fundamental failing on your part. It doesn’t make you unloveable or invisible. It just means that those people aren’t very good at looking beyond their own world. But the fact that you are — that despite the darkness you feel, you have the ability to share your love and light with others — is a strength. Your work isn’t to change who you are; it’s to find people who are able to give you the connection you need. Because despite what you feel, you are not too much. You are not too sensitive or too needy. You are thoughtful and empathetic. You are compassionate and kind. And with or without anyone’s acknowledgment or affection, you are enough.